I’ve said it before – your “New” job is – SELF CARE. And it is truly a j o b. I have had to fight over weight issues most all of my life. It’s critical now. I have discovered the effort I have put in all these years has been a failing game. WOW – the lies I have told myself and the over indulgence have been plenty i.e. I’m gonna treat myself today. How many times a day have I “treated” myself? Now it is how many times a week have I “treated ” myself? That needs to get down to h treating myself ONCE in a month. OMG This is painful, lol
One of my games has been not do deprive myself. Cut down, cut back but still allow myself that “treat.”One treat to another and another all in one week. It’s too much. Yes, and I have been patting myself on my back thinking I’m doing a good job. I deserve a “treat” for such a good job. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA Damn!!
SUGAR is the culprit. I am addicted. Most all of us have a sugar addiction and need a 12 step program. The lies I have told myself about THAT!!!! Everything we eat EXCEPT green vegetables, meat, fish and poultry turns into sugar. It sucks! Check out how much sugar you really consume – it’s mind blowing. I start off with a vitamin supplement that is a citrus energy stick that I put in water – 1.8 grams of sugars. In my tea I had used ginger honey crystals – 17 grams of sugar (that’s equal to 4 teaspoons). Then some fruit – more sugars. Most of us play the game of – oh, fruit is a natural sugar so it’s ok. Hell to the naw, naw, naw it ain’t ok. Ask your pancreas. I have a protein drink – 9 grams of sugar. I then have a 6oz shot of a n a s t y Asian herbal tea. The only way I can suffer the taste is to chase it with 6-7 pieces of dried cherries. Dried fruit is FULL of sugar. Then throughout the day I used to eat “natural and/or organic” corn chips (corn turns to sugar). Let’s have some peanut butter and a couple of crackers – check out the sugar in peanut butter AND the crackers turn to sugar. Oh, my other game – I stopped eating bread and went to gluten free crackers – crackers turn to sugar, gluten or no gluten. Dinner time – brown rice, black rice, potatoes, or pasta – it’s carbohydrates and it all turns to sugar. No dessert. Another cup of tea with the honey crystals – 17 more grams of sugar. And, another n a s t y herbal tea with the dried cherries. I use cannabis to get to sleep. I prefer edibles – unfortunately most all the edibles are sweet. I may consume anywhere from 2.5 – 7 grams of sugar in my cannabis” night cap.” NO alcohol – it ALL turns to sugar. Another game – the brown liquors have all the sugar. It ALL turns to sugars – even tequila, vodka, gin. OH MY DAMN!! This is truly HARD work. Consider this – we are to consume ONLY 50 grams of sugars a DAY. Now I have immediately said that ain’t happening. BUT I have a number to reach for, ugh. Hell, I am already at 70 grams of sugar that I can count. That does NOT include the peanut butter, crackers, cherries and whatever else I eat. L A W D – this is the hardest job I have EVER had.
I was given an ultimatum in May of this year – get my numbers down or get on medication. I was given 4 months. I do my labs this week and report to the doctor the following week. This latest awareness of how many grams I consume JUST came to me last week. Although I certainly cut back and cut down but will it be enough? I am afraid. Damn and the holidays are knocking at the door. H E L P !!!
Think about it. What is your body telling you? Are you listening? What games do you play around food and alcohol? Try a 30 day detox and truly listen to your body when you start re-introducing the foods you want back into your body. A little ache here, a little stiffness there and a little pain to go with it. I don’t know about you but, I have lied to myself about that saying “it’s the aging process,” I’ll be alright. Pay attention to your body. It’s telling you something.
It’s a holiday weekend. I’m staying home where it’s safe. lol I know my limitations. HAVE A WONDERFUL AND SAFE LABOR DAY WEEKEND.
